Really wish you didn’t have to leave Monday.

When you leave I become lonely again and I hate it.

I really don’t understand you sometimes. 

This year was not the best year in my adolescence, but this year also opened my eyes up quite a bit. 

Here’s my list of ups and downs:

Ups!

• May 26, 2011 became one year for Nate and I.
• Nate asked me to marry him and I said yes.
• I become stronger as a person.
• I learned what patience really is.
• I set my priorities straight.
• It is my last year in high school.

Downs

• I learned that no matter how happy you are, there will always be someone who is trying to ruin it for you.
• The friends you have now most likely won’t be there for you in the near future.
• High school is the worst possible thing to happen to a teenager.
• Everyone grows up, which means they might grow out of you as well.

Of course this wasn’t everything, but everything that has happened to me in 2011 has became a part of me and who I am. Don’t ever lost sight of yourself and your happiness always matters. 2012 will be different because I won’t be in high school anymore and I know I will lose the majority of my friends, but that’s life and everything happens for a reason.

Happy New Years Eve!

Nate leaves Monday :/.

On the bright side, 5 more months till graduation which means we won’t ever have to be apart for the rest of our lives. I will be more than glad to change my last name this summer.