I need to stop being so lazy with everything…my art, my friends, and just my life in general. I hate that aspect of myself, its so frustrating. I have all these wonderful ideas and I never even try to make them happen, or I don’t have enough faith in myself. Nate always encourages me, and he is honest with me. That’s why I love him, he’ll tell me what I need to hear, not what I want to.
Its true when they say that your own worst enemy is yourself.
Note: fight the laziness and get shit done
People say certain things (whether for really good or bad attention, but most of the time its bad) because they want attention from people. Don’t feed people what they want, and fighting back with just as harsh words does not justify anything. Who gives a shit if you knew this person in high school, its time to move on and try to be an adult in areas of your life where its needed. People are ALWAYS going to say horrid and derogatory things about others, and they’re going to stick to their warped as hell views. I’m so tired of this town, its full of nothing but dramatic babies who feel the need to be heroes for the wrong reasons.
What does anyone expect from situations like that? The world is made up of tons of people who say horrid things and slander whatever is different than their views. Stop and take a step up. You’re not exposing anything, you’re just making matters worse.
Thank the Lord above that I don’t have to be around these people every day like I was in high school. I am so glad I have the people that I do in my life.
My Lily of the Desert organic aloe vera gel came in the mail today with my perio mouth wash!
So excited to use both of those items! The aloe vera gel I will be ingesting for health and using it along with my jojoba oil as a moisturizer :). The perio wash is a natural mouth wash with CoQ10 and other herbs-great for oral health.
Favorite Video Game Franchises In Order:
Seriously don’t know how two people could love each other so much. Its such an incredible feeling to know that someone loves every single part of you-even the little dark corners.
Sometimes it doesn’t feel real that I’m going to spend the rest of my life with someone so indescribably amazing and perfect.
Its just eerie when people you know pass away, and its not even like you were even close to that person. Its just the fact that you used to see that person alive frequently and you’d say the occasional hi. Then, they’re just gone from the physical world. That person probably wasn’t even popular in high school, or in general. Its like when they pass away everyone is suddenly sorry.
I just find it extremely tragic when people die at a very young age, especially in their teens. That’s when you really start living life, forming who you are, and establishing long-term relationships with loved ones around you. Really stirs up something in me. I guess just the thought of death. Its so strange because everyone is going to die at some point in time, its just that we won’t know when.
My goals for now and the upcoming year:
Its nearly impossible for me to go to sleep without Nate beside me. I remember being alone for those 2 years where I would just cry alone from missing him so much, and now we both got what we wanted-each other. Sounds like some sappy love story, but its true. I wouldn’t exchange him for anyone else. He’s a part of me that I hold the closest to my heart.
Sometimes it really overwhelms me when I realize how much I love him.